the end of a winning streak...

It seems as if one of my worries about our 5 days away has come true; the breastfeeding is coming to an end.

Boogie and I have been so lucky. From the very beginning he took to it like a pro and we had no bumps in the road along the way.  Before he was born I set two goals for myself in regards to breast feeding
   1. EBF (exclusively breastfeed) for six months. No solids, No formula, just EBF. And that I would try anything and everything to try to meet that goal......accomplished!
   2. Continue BF until he is 1 year old....possible fail....

Pumping has never been very effective for me. While I was stock piling milk in preparation for our big trip, I was noticing it was becoming more and more difficult each time. At first I was able to get a full bottle from one side, then it took both sides, then it took multiple session just to get one bottle's worth.... So, I was starting to worry that being away from him for 5 days would kill my supply completely. Well, that concern seems to be coming true...

The last couple days Boogie was getting progressively cranky. First I thought, maybe it was time for that first tooth...nope.  Then I thought, maybe it's gas/constipation/etc....nope.  After trying lots of things, I finally decided to try a bottle.....he chugged that thing like I've never seen before; 5oz bottle in 10 seconds flat! Even though he had been feeding for the same amount of time, he apparently was not getting enough milk....bad mommy was starving the poor kid!! I felt horrible!!

So, I guess this is the beginning of the end; it's time to wean.  And when I say wean, I mean for mommy's sake, not Boogie's.  He's totally fine with just taking a bottle, it's mommy that's really going to miss it.

Such a big boy!

see...he's a pro!

I hope to be able to BF him his bedtime feeding until he's a year. That feeding has always been just to 'top him off' to make it through the night and to calm him down and get ready for bed.  It's a special mommy/baby bonding time that I'm really not ready to let go of yet. So, fingers crossed that these boobies can at least handle that!!

I'm definitely feeling like a little bit of a failure right now.  Everything had been going so great in this aspect. I knew this day would have to come eventually, but I thought I would have more time to get used to the idea.  I really feel like a sports team at the end of a winning streak...

no place like home...

So, our first trip away from Boogie has come and gone.  J and I had a great time in Vegas with lots of friends and family for Amy & Zach's wedding.  Having so many people there and so much going on was a good distraction for me. I didn't sit in the room and cry for 5 days like I thought I might!

I have to say though, I can't believe how much Boogie changed while we were gone! It's like I left my baby and returned to a toddler! He didn't really learn any new tricks (ie: crawling) like I was afraid he would, but he just seems so much older! He came home with new sounds, a new cry and new gestures. It's like I almost didn't recognize him!

Now begins the count down till our next big trip away (52 days)....this time it will be for 8 days and we'll be on the other side of the world!! Alright, the tears are flowing just thinking about it....

As much fun as we had and how much we enjoyed seeing everyone, there's still no place like home where I can snuggle my little Boogie....

you make me smile....

So, I wasn't going to jump on the 'bandwagon' of blogging about 2010 in reflection.  Honestly, after being pregnant for the first 6 months and then having a new baby for the second 6 months....I don't really remember much....

BUT, on the way to church this morning I heard a song that will forever be my 'theme song,' if you will, for 2010.   It wasn't the first time I had heard it, but while still in the spirit of the new year and thinking about how much our life has changed in the past 12 months....it really hit home.

I can honestly say that 2010 has been one of the greatest, if not THE greatest year of my life.  When I look back I will always remember it as the year I became a mother.  Boogie has only been here for 6 months, but for some reason I can't remember life before him. In the past 6 months I have finally seen what life is really about, what it means to live every moment for someone else, and how crazy in love you can be with one, tiny little person....

Smile 

by: Uncle Kracker

"You´re better then the best

I´m lucky just to linger in your light

Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right

Completely unaware

Nothing can compare to where you send me

Lets me know that it´s ok 

Yeah it´s ok

And the moments when my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun

Fall outta bed 

Sing like a bird

Dizzy in my head 

Spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold 

Buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

Even when you´re gone

Somehow you come along

Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that

You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun

Fall outta bed 

Sing like a bird

Dizzy in my head 

Spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold 

buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you

'Cuz every time that I get around you

I see the best of me inside your eyes

You make me smile

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold 

Buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun

Fall outta bed 

Sing like bird

Dizzy in my head 

Spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold 

Buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

Oh, you make me smile

Oh, you make me smile"